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Ex-Porn Star, Crissy Moran, Talks About How She Left the Sex Industry for Christianity

Childhood sexual abuse led her there. Jesus helped her escape, she said.

Ex-Porn Star, Crissy Moran, Talks About How She Left the Sex Industry for Christianity

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WASHINGTON — In the summer of 1980, a four-year-old girl and her brother walked over to play at their friends’ swimming pool. The girl was not super close with her playmates; she saw them more as good acquaintances. But the two children were given permission to leave the house and play. In the broiling heat of Jacksonville, Florida, splashing around in a pool is a godsend.
 
This was no holy day, though. The next thing the girl knew, her friends’ daddy took her into a bathroom. Inside, she said, the man assaulted her sexually. "He touched me and stuff like that," she said, declining to elaborate.
 
Today, the girl now goes by the name of Christina Outlaw, which she took after she got married nearly three years ago; she refers to herself as Crissy. Still, Crissy gets cautious when she talks about her childhood; she chooses her words with care, pauses for two or three seconds, and fumbles for the proper expression.
 
Explaining her early years is difficult not just because of the pain she went through.  Crissy felt like she had no control — zero, none at all. Her working-class parents fought a lot. Her dad drank. When Crissy was 12 or 13, her parents divorced. Her mom got remarried. Older boys touched her and older men leered at her, she said. "I just remember feeling like people looked at me in a sexual way, older men especially," she said.
 
Crissy grew up Baptist in the heart of the Bible Belt; the Florida Baptist Convention has its headquarters in Jacksonville. At the age of 11, Crissy accepted Jesus Christ as her savior. But in her teenage years, she wandered and perhaps was led astray. "I felt like God didn’t love me at all. When I was 17, I had an abortion," she said. "If He loved me, He would not have let happen what happened."
 
Like many Americans who undergo misfortune, Crissy wanted to flip the script. Gaining control of her life became her ambition.  For some, work, alcohol, or gambling is the path to autonomy and self-empowerment. For Christina, starring in pornographic films was. Her career begot the stage name she is known by today, Crissy Moran.
 
From 1999 to 2006, Moran appeared in more than 50 adult movies. Her pulchritude and appeal were undeniable.
 
Today, Christina Outlaw is lives with her husband in Houston. (Citing privacy reasons, she declined to give her original surname). She left the porn industry nearly a decade ago and said she has not received any profits from the business since she left. She works in a female clothing-and-accessories store as a stylist. And most important to her, Crissy is a Christian.
 
Crissy’s transformation from abused child to porn starlet to Christian has been told before in the mainstream and Christian press. And other porn starlets, notably Linda Lovelace, the star of Deep Throat,  have become Christian after leaving the industry. But in a 60-minute interview with Aleteia, Outlaw emphasized that leaving behind the male-dominated pornography business for Christianity was her path to peace.
 
Crissy’s changed outlook on life is apparent in her attitude to her new line of work in retail. She sees women differently. "I love making women and girls look pretty. Women are so beautiful and everyone is different. It’s such an amazing job. Women are not in competition with me anymore. It’s a weird thing. I see the beauty in everybody. The first thing I used to see was the flaws. Now I see the beauty," she said.
 
Despite the emotional scars from her childhood, Crissy became a functioning adult. She graduated from high school in Florida, took classes at a local college, and worked various jobs, including as a waitress at Hooter’s. Yet she wanted more for her life. After taking